Meausrement Update

Healthy You Challenge Check In #17


Starting Weight (5/13/09): 320 lbs.
Last Week's Weight: 299.8 lbs.
Current Weight: 298 lbs.

Weight lost this week: 1.8 lbs.
Total Weight Lost: 22 lbs.

After days of eating wedding and vacation food, I have absolutely no idea how I lost any weight. My goal was to maintain, and at the very least no go back over 300. But yay, I lost 1.8 lbs this week. I'm thrilled, except that there's this nagging feeling in the back of my head telling me it will probably catch up to me next week. This coming week I have to be extra careful to make really good choices. I avoided a stall-out this week (even when I deserved one), but this week has to be about good eating, 2200 calories or less, and tons and tons of veggies.

Next week: updated measurements!

3 Fall Trends I'm Totally Stoked About

So Labor Day is over, along with one day to sleep off the hangover (whether literal or figurative). As much as I love summer, I'm getting really excited for fall. So excited that I jumped the gun on one of these trends, because I just couldn't wait until the weekend was over.

1. Belted Waists--this trend is so plus-size friendly. Instead of being one giant boob/torso/belly monster, you give yourself some definition and highlight your awesome curves. Once October rolls around (and I have some cash to spend) I'm going to be getting these two looks from Jessica London. I already have them added to my digital shopping cart, just waiting for the day when I can click the check-out button.

This one is the Shawl Collar Dress with Patent Belt, although I'm going to opt for teal.

This is the Sweetheart Neck Jacket Dress, and it just screams elegance at work. I can't wait to pair it with calf-high boots.

2. Red--Since I'll be broke after getting the two dresses above, I'm excited that red is this fall's hot color, because I can pull out this red cowl neck dress I got at Lane Bryant last year. I can subsitute a belt for the fabric chord to change it up a bit.

I also finally jumped on this clutch from GetReadySetGo that I've had my eye on for three months.

3. Dark Matte Nail Polish
--This is the one that I just could not wait for. I'm currently wearing OPI's new "Susie Skis the Pyranese," described as a dark gray-blue, which makes my shorter-than-average nails look more substantial and elegant than normal. I also want to try OPI's dark emerald "Here Today...Aragon Tomorrow" and Essie's twilight blue "Midnight Cami." And of course, this fall I intend to go at least a week or two in solid black. I've never liked dark nail polish before. I've always been a french/purple/red kind of gal, but I'm ditching that this season to explore the deeper hues.

A Fat Reminder

Skinny people generally imagine that the fat person's brain works like this: a fat person floats along through life until they are informed that they are fat through some humiliating incident or another. This incident forges within them a resolve to lose weight. The person then either loses weight or goes into denial until the cycle repeats.

Now I don't know about other fat people, but for me this is the opposite of how my brain works. Every time I get embarrassed or humiliated, I deal with it. It doesn't make me want to lose weight. Instead, I get prouder of my emotional fortitude, smarter at coping, more adept with my personal solutions to the fat person's dilemmas. It's when I feel truly beautiful, shiek, well-dressed, and glamorous that I am most inspired to eat healthy and work out more. Momentum goes both ways.

Today I had one of those fat reminders. I flew to Malibu for a wedding, and both flights on Saturday went perfectly. My first flight today was the same. However, on the very last leg of my journey, I found myself in an airplane seat with a seat belt that wouldn't fasten. Three flight and the seat belt snapped easily, flight number four and it wouldn't budge. Worse, the two other passengers in my row were already seated, so I had to try and try to get it to close, sucking in my gut as far as it would go, wishing I could just disappear. My biggest fear was that the flight attendant would come by and say something before I was able to get it to fit. Finally, after an indemnible period of time, I heard the tell tale "click" that meant I wasn't the fattest woman on the planet. Poof, in one humiliating episode all the hours and hours of feeling gorgeous at the rehearsal and the wedding were gone. Everything that had me feeling so good the past month had vanished with it, and I felt like just another fat girl trying to fight the whole world for her right just to exist in peace. I spent the five hour flight avoiding the people in my row and flipping through my copy of Vogue pretending that any of the items in it might fit.

Tomorrow is weigh-in day, and after a very decadent four day trip, I doubt there will be any good news. However, I need to remember that I feel bad because of the stupid seat belt, and not because of anything else. One day I'll get on a plane and the thought that it might not snap won't even cross my mind. Until then, I gotta keep on chugging and not let stupid crap like this keep me down.